Happy Wednesday! I was suppose to blog yesterday, but I have finals that I need to take care of and most importantly, I wanted to spend time with my family, because roughly two weeks...I will joining the rest of the working moms in the workforce. Excited? Yes. Sad? Very much so.
Saying Goodbye to Staying at Home
Some may think I am crazy to have the opportunity to stay at home with my children and watch them grow and develop. Do not get me wrong, I loved it, let me rephrased, I recently began to embrace being home. Before I was very stressed with homework, trying to start a business, cleaning the house, taking care of the kids, my fiance doing as much as he could to help me out after a hard day of work and finances. After speaking with my mother and my fiance, I realized that I needed to just RELAX, something I never done in my life. I put my own business on hold (but not my non profit), I focused on school and I spent every last minute with my children, enjoying every little thing that they did. I didn't worry about a job. I would send a resume here or there but I wasn't too concern. I knew God had a plan for me because I was never out of a job this long; I was no longer afraid about how we would pay bills, because I knew God was going to protect us. Sidebar, I do not know how many of my readers are religious or not, but I am and I will never push religion on anyone nor will I dedicate a specific blog on my religion.
Yet, staying at home was taken a toll on me. I do not have many friends and the friends that I do have live in New York. It is kind of hard to visit friends in New Jersey when my fiance has the car to go to work, I can't get on the bus with a double stroller and there isn't much around. However, I managed. Being confined to the walls of my house every day, forgetting to shower, sleeping while the girls slept, which resulted in me not getting a lot of my work done, was making me go stir crazy.
What I Will Miss About Staying At Home
The perk of staying at home was the watching the girls develop. Since they were born premature, every milestone is such a huge achievement for Aaron and I. My girls are who I am going to miss. Nothing more.
Trying to Find Day Care
I am so last minute. To put things in perspective; I am not rich; no where near and therefore rely on public assistance such as WIC to take care of my children. I especially need to rely on public assistance for child care, however, it takes 45 days to process the application. I spent all day today looking at day care, stressed out about the prices, figuring out how I am going to afford this. I know, God will have a way for me.